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Current Mood: Lost in the woods
Insanity Status: 37% (Coke Needed)
Mood: Sleep deprived
Energy Level: Falling slowly
Currently: Avoiding human interactions... Successfully!
Current State: Soaked wet from the rain
System: Rebooting... (Caffeine installation needed)
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! ! ! Before you contact me or follow me, understand these rules ! ! !
— I'm introverted. I need my alone time and social time. I prefer being alone most of the time, unless you've managed to encourage me to talk or you genuinely interest me.
— Don't expect fast replies from me. If I don't hear from you within 3 days, I might just remove you unless you have a compelling reason for the delay. I have my own reasons too. I'd rather you text me right away since I get anxious and might lose interest if you don't keep in touch or update me.
— I get easily distracted. I might switch topics, disappear without warning, or not respond. If I'm playing, remind me without getting upset.
— I prefer others to take the initiative in conversations. I struggle to start them but can keep them going once they're started. If I end a conversation, it's because I'm done with it.
— I'm anxious about video calls/chats, voice calls/chat, or voice record. If you're into that, I'm probably not the person for you. I can voice call but won't talk much; I'll just be chatting.
— I don't take or want to share pictures of myself. Don’t ask. I only take photos of my pets or interesting things I come across.
— I can be a chatterbox if I find you interesting. I might bombard you with random questions or topics. If it’s annoying or confusing, let me know, but I’d prefer if you just let me be.
— I have a dark sense of humor and like sarcasm. Expect jokes about grim topics or serious things. I laugh at everything and lack empathy, so don’t expect me to be sweet or sad.
— I enjoy gory stuff. If you can't handle that, we might not get along. If you want to stay in touch but don’t like my interests, let me know so I can avoid discussing them. Extreme gore is what I’m into, so don’t talk to me if you have a weak stomach.
— I’m bad at accepting compliments. I might just be silent or say something negative about myself. I don’t say thank you often.
— I'm naturally curious and might pry for personal information if you’re vague. I like knowing about people but won’t share much about myself. I won’t force you to share your details either.
— If the conversation feels one-sided or boring, let me know. I might not ask about you or seem disinterested. I can be tired or just in a mood that makes me seem cold.
— Don’t copy or mimic me too much. I’m paranoid about that. I might mimic you too, but not to an extreme. Also, I change over time based on how I feel about people or situations.
— I’m brutally honest and direct, often coming off as judgmental or mean, but that’s just who I am. I can’t lie, but I lie a lot, so you won’t always know when I’m lying, though I’m honest most of the time. I tend to dislike almost everything and can’t figure out what I actually like. I’m extremely observant, which is why I point out everything and seem judgmental or prone to criticism. I take constructive criticism well but am bad at communicating, so people misunderstand me. My love language is words of affirmation (I'm not affectionate), which means being mean, so if I’m ever harsh with you, you’ll understand.
— I need attention. Not the kind you can brush off with a nod or a smile, but the kind that consumes. Validation, compliments, whatever keeps me going, I’ll take it. If you’re my friend, understand this: I don't share. Seeing you with someone else sets something off in me. I'm protective to the point of possessive, obsessive even. I don't care if that makes me look like a fool. At least now, you know. I'll give you the same—gifts, gestures, all that, but I don't expect anything in return. What I can’t stand is being shut up or silenced. If you can't handle someone who never stops talking, then I'm not for you. Simple as that.
! ! ! Contacting or following me is not acceptable if... ! ! !
— I'm not interested if you're the kind of person who's always busy or constantly needs to be doing something.
— If you're an adult or at least 6 years older than me, don’t reach out. I’m only open to people who are 1-5 years older than me or 1-2 years younger.
— I'm deeply uncomfortable with South Asians. I’d rather not engage with them. Central and West Asians are somewhat tolerable depending on the country, but I’m not enthusiastic about it. Southeast Asians are okay, and East Asians are more preferable. Eastern Europeans, especially Russians, are the most desirable. Southern and Western Europeans are fine. Northern and Central Europeans are less preferred but still acceptable. North Americans are highly preferable. Central Americans are somewhat interesting, and while South Americans are not preferred, it depends on the country. Asians are not my top choice; Europeans and Americans are much more preferable. The other continents are acceptable. I understand that individuals can be nice, but I find these preferences necessary due to historical or cultural discomfort.
— If you’re part of the LGBTQ+ community, please refrain from contacting me. Despite being part of it myself, I identify as aroace and straight. Conversations with trans individuals might be confusing due to pronouns. If you’re gay or attracted to guys, that’s fine, though I might find it unappealing. If you’re a lesbian, definitely do not contact me. It’s very uncomfortable for me as a girl. Other sexual orientations are okay, but I don’t find them entirely comfortable.
— If you’re a furry or have sexual interests in animals or engage in any related activities, diagnosed with lycanthropy/zoanthropy don’t reach out to me. I love animals, but not in the way you might. I may still talk to you if the topic doesn’t come up, but I’ll find it repulsive. The same goes for anyone attracted to aliens or inanimate objects—just don’t.
— If you’re into emotional drama or relationship issues, don’t contact me. Normal drama is fine, but anything that involves deep emotional turmoil or personal issues is awkward. I’m not a therapist and don’t want to deal with such matters. Gossip is okay as long as it doesn’t involve people I have personal connections with or those who don’t deserve to be talked about behind their backs.
— If you have mental disorders or are mentally ill, don’t reach out if you can’t manage it yourself or haven’t sought professional help. It’s fine if you’re handling things well or have been consulted. Just inform me of any specific triggers so I can avoid them. Don’t expect me to solve your problems or I might worsen them. I understand having issues myself but manage them. Just let me know if I’m doing something that affects you.
— Don’t vent to me. I can’t handle big emotions and might get triggered or emotional myself. Don’t expect me to open up or be a shoulder to cry on. I’m not interested in personal issues or emotional support.
— If you have attachment issues or crave excessive attention, don’t contact me. I have similar issues but keep them in check. Manage your own behavior. I’m not one to offer constant attention or reassurance. I don't look forward to wasting my time on you.
— If you're in a relationship, a friendship, or part of a group that already has your loyalty, don't waste my time. If your attention is going to be split, there's no point in starting something with me. I'm not here to be the side option, and I won't tolerate being ignored or getting half your focus. It's a simple equation: if you're with someone else, you can't be with me. And I’m not interested in playing a supporting role in your life.
— Don't bother reaching out if you’re expecting me to carry the conversation or if you’re only here out of curiosity or boredom. I don't do surface-level chatter or meaningless exchanges. If you don’t have a solid reason to talk, don’t waste your breath. I'm not here to entertain you or to make your day more interesting. I expect you to know why you're here and for it to be worth my time.
— If we don't share the same interests, or if you can't be bothered to engage with mine, don't even start. I don't have the energy to pretend to care about things that don't matter to me. I need substance, something real, something that actually matters to both of us. If you're too wrapped up in your own world to notice anyone else's, keep walking. I have no patience for self-absorbed conversations where only one person matters.
— I've got CPTSD, ASPD, RAD, social anxiety, attachment/abandonment issues, and possibly a Cluster A personality disorder, though I'm not entirely sure. Just don’t label me as unstable or bring it up. I’m easily triggered, overthink everything, and don’t want to deal with anyone who can’t handle that. I’m paranoid, anxious, have intrusive thoughts, and struggle with suicidal(passive) and depressive thoughts. I don’t talk about it openly and hate oversharing. Don’t expect me to be open or tolerant of jokes and pranks. I have phobias, alot of them. So, i’m hypersensitive, but sarcasm is fine as long as it’s not aimed at me.
— No role-playing, you're not a kid. Also, no attraction towards some of these paraphilias: Objectophilia, Mechanophilia, Pyrophilia, Lithophilia, Robotophilia, Zoophilia, Ornithophilia, Entomophilia, Exophilia, Teratophilia, Cryptozoologophilia, Androphilia, Gynophilia, Transvestic Fetishism, Pedophilia, Ephebophilia, Hebephilia. If you have any attraction to these or anything related to them, don't contact me. I’m not here to handle them. You reached out, so deal with your issues yourself. Just don’t trigger me; I'll respect your boundaries as long as yours aren’t severe.

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Games
Backgammon
Checkers
Chess
8 ball pool
Mancala
Connect four
Dots and boxes
Go-baduk
Sudoku
Freecell
Solitaire
Poker
Ludo
Sea bottle
Ping pong
Tic tac toe
Pinball
Cornhole
Hammerhit
Tap match
Color wars
Phigros
Rollance
Vector
Fallout Shelter
Wood Nuts and Bolts
Review these before before we play
Game Recommendations: Suggest free games only. No paid titles will be considered. I primarily use websites for gaming. While other platforms are acceptable, they should be user-friendly and lag-free. I can't tolerate laggy games. Ensure the game runs smoothly before suggesting it.
Multiplayer Engagement: I'm open to playing multiplayer games. If you want to play with your friends, I'd prefer introductions from them if we’re playing together. Respectful behavior is mandatory. If not, we'll stick to 1v1 sessions.
Learning Curve: If I'm unfamiliar with a game, it might take time for me to pick it up. Be prepared to switch to a different game if needed. I might not be a pro, and I'll need time to adapt to new games. Avoid high-pressure scenarios. Be ready to switch games if the current one isn’t enjoyable or if I’m struggling to understand it.
Patience: I expect patience from you, just as you'll receive it from me. If timing doesn't align, we can schedule another session. If I don't have the time for a session, don't press it. I'll engage when I can.
Technical Issues: If a game link or room doesn't work, I'll generate a new one. Be prepared for such situations.

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"RULES"

My PREFERENCES ⸻
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"ARTS"— Genres: Gothic Literature, Grotesque Art, Macabre Art, Narrative Art, Liminal Space, Melancholic, Russian Art Styles
— Artists: Francisco Goya, Hieronymus Bosch, Edgar Allan Poe
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"INTERESTS"— Colors: Crimson, Blood Red, Garnet, Rose, Jet Black, Onyx, Charcoal, Slate Grey, Ash Grey, Denim, Navy, Indigo, Violet, Royal Purple, Midnight Purple, Forest Green, Moss Green
— Animals: Rosy Maple Moth, Bagworm Moth Caterpillar, Arctic Fox, Wolves, Saw-whet Owl, Crows, Ravens, Hammerhead Shark, Maine Coon Cat, Norwegian Forest Cat, Ferrets, Guinea Pig, Lab Rats
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"MUSIC"— Genres: 8D Audio, Mainstream Pop, Indie Pop, Electropop, Vintage Retro, Pop Rap, Contemporary R&B, Singer-Songwriter, Acoustic, Latin Pop, Pop Ballads, Alternative Rock, Indie Rock, Pop Punk, Electroclash, Synthwave, Trap, Modern Jazz, Classic Jazz, Modern Soul, Psychedelic Pop, Dream Pop, Alternative R&B, Reggaeton
— Artists: Lana Del Rey, Sevdaliza, Isabel Larosa, Sofia Isella
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"ENTERTAINMENT"— Watch: Graphical Movies, Horror Movies, Slice of Life, Gore Movies
— Media: Did You Know (DYK), Hypothetical Scenarios (What If)
— Humor: Memes, Funny Videos/Pictures, Shower Thoughts, 3AM Thoughts, Relatable Quotes
— Story: Non-Fiction, Fiction, Romance, Crime, Mystery, Graphic Gore, Apocalyptic Stories, Crime Documentaries
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"CULINARY"— Foods: Meat, Chicken Poppers, Chicken, Burger, Loaded Fries, Karaage, Takoyaki, Char Siu, Chicken Nuggets, Torikatsu, Tonkatsu, Tebasaki, Ice Lollies, Ice Cream, Scotch egg, Apple, Blueberry, Orange, Mango
— Beverages: Coca-Cola/soft drinks, Iced/hot Coffee, Mango Drinks, Sparkling water
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"ENVIRONMENTAL"— Cold: Rain, Snow, Ice
— Warm: Herbal Baths, Saunas
— Locations: Cabins, Secluded Areas, Post-Apocalyptic, Forest, Hospital/Lab
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"INTEREST"— Forensic Science: Autopsy, Biopsy, Taxidermy, Pathology, Crime
— Studies: Graphic Medicine, Blood Analysis, Trauma, Human Anatomy, Blood, Death, Dissection
— Psychology: Stockholm Syndrome, Adrenaline
— Types: Masked Men, Psychopaths, Serial Killers, ISTP, The Man in My Dreams

My AVERSIONS ⸻
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"SOCIAL DISLIKES"— Interaction: Direct Socializing, Small Talk, Face-to-face Interaction, Asking for casual talks rather than reading my carrd
— People: Self-proclaimed smart or authoritative figures, Sassy individuals, Preppy/girly girls, Sigma/daddy types, People in general, Society
— Anime Culture: Anime, Manga, Manhwa, Weeb culture
— Generations: Gen Alpha/Beta, Crappy generational trends, Weeb society
— Couples: Showoff Couples, Disrespect for Singles, Being treated like a third wheel
— Venting: Unreciprocated emotional venting, Not taking my advice seriously
— Children: Spoiled brats, Ungrateful kids, Self-proclaimed mature children
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"PERSONAL TRAITS"— Mind: Overthinking, Inner voice annoyance
— Clumsiness: Dislike for being clumsy, Forgetfulness, Distraction
— Tinnitus: Persistent ringing in ears, Irritation when it's loud
— Sleep: Insomnia, Oversleeping, Disrupted sleep schedule
— Disregarded Ideas: Unappreciated contributions, Ideas being ignored, Not engaging when I share my thoughts
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"ACTIVITIES"— Unenjoyable Skills: Drawing, Coding, Sewing, Embroidery, Writing, Being a Jack of all trades but a master of none
— Physical Activity: Being physically active, Sweating issues, Overstimulation, Being controlled, Running, Jumping, Exercise
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"SENSORY DISLIKES"— Sensitivity: Bright lights, Sunlight, Heat, Loud noises, Sensitive hearing
— Motion: Motion sickness, Car scents, Air conditioning, General motion
— Sickness: Fever, Sickness, Dizziness, Migraines, Eye strain
— Extremes: Overly intense situations, Sensitive sensory response
— Phobias: Ocean, Sea, Large bodies of water, Giants, Huge monsters, Vertigo, High places
— Insects: Crawling insects, Flying bugs, Butterflies
— Slimy Things: Messy slime, Time-consuming cleanup, Gooey textures
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"HATES"— Dreams: The blurry face man disappearing in my dreams, Shapeshifting in dreams or feeling it in real life
— Being Disturbed: Repetitive annoyances, Constantly being called for attention but dismissed with "never mind"

BRIEF INTRODUCTION

YAHOO !Name's Ayame Morishita.
Call me Mae, Mimi, Ame, Yoru, or whatever makes you comfortable—just don’t use “Mori”; it means death in Latin, even though it doesn’t in Japanese. Born February 18, 2009. Figure out my age yourself; I don’t care to update it every time. I'm Japanese, but before you even think about it, don't ask me about anime or manga. I hate, hate, hate that crap, don't watch it, don't read it. Cartoons are tolerable. I was raised speaking English, living in Japan, so I'm not really fluent in either language. I’ve picked up a bunch of other languages along the way, but I'm not fluent in those either. I can speak Spanish, Tagalog, Sign languange and some other stuff but don't expect me to write anything in them. English is what I stick to, even though I’m not great at it. Japanese and Mandarin/Cantonese? Yeah, I suck at those too. I grew up somewhere in Saitama Prefecture, kasukabe, not Tokyo or Osaka. Don’t ask me about Japan or its culture; I couldn’t care less. I know a bit about folklores, but I don’t believe in superstitions—they’re not logical, so they’re irrelevant to me. Now, I’m in the United Kingdom, due to family arrangements, but don’t ask me about my family unless you want to hear something you might regret.I'm an heterosexual aroace (i don't support lgbtq) and I'm short—annoyingly short, somewhere around 4'11" to 5'0", and it pisses me off. Tried everything to grow taller, nothing works. I’m an INTP-T 5w6 (severely introverted), not because some dumb online test told me so, but because I’ve studied MBTI, cognitive functions, and other typologies inside and out. Preferable if you tell me your MBTI type first. I only get along with thinkers and introverts, but feelers and extroverts can keep their distance. I have a thing for ISTPs; call it childish, but they keep me engaged. They’re the type I enjoy talking to. I'm a writer and an artist, mostly digital. Traditional art? Eh, forget it, I’m terrible. I sort of animate, too. I do 3D modeling and sculpting, code in any programming language you throw at me (I'm not a professional), study psychology, science, and crimes. Gosh, I have lots of hobbies.My head’s a mess—delusions, overthinking, maladaptive daydreaming, forgetfulness(though, i also have photographic memory.) and i easily get distracted. I zone out all the time. I'm nosy as hell, and yes, I’m curious enough to dig into anything that catches my eye. My brain constantly runs scenarios that don’t exist but i love it, i have a voice in my head that I’ve named 'Ame.' It's annoying as hell, it narrates my life, but it's there and i listen to it. I dream a lot, my nightmares sucks. Vivid, lucid dreams. Often, I see this faceless guy—not creepy, just... comforting. My dreams sometimes predict real events, unintentionally. I think it’s cool. I’m jumpy or even skittish. Flinch easily. Hate loud noises. Clumsy as hell and forgetful because i have dyspraxia. Physical activity? Nah uh, no thanks, unless it’s parkour—that’s the only physical thing I give a damn about. Sarcasm and Dark humor is my favorite. I use it to deflect, to break the awkwardness, or just for the hell of it. I’m pretty sure I’ve got some disorders, but I don’t play the self-diagnosis game. I study psychology, but I’m not looking for professional help. I might have issues but I manage. Expressing emotions is a pain—I avoid it when I can. Big emotions is not my thing. I overthink everything.Gore fascinates me, but it’s gotta be extreme. Anything less, and I’m bored. I read a lot, but no Wattpad crap. But, if I have to choose that would be Novels. Why waste money on dead trees I won’t enjoy, such as books, when i can just read them online? I love animals, unless it's the ones I hate. I experiment on them—don’t ask, I won’t explain. Outside? No thanks. I’ll stay in my bed, my favorite spot. I’m nocturnal, my cardiac rhythm’s screwed up, insomniac, stressed out, and disturbed. I oversleep or can’t sleep at all. Friends? Bah, None, mostly by choice. I don’t mind being alone, but I also don’t want to be lonely. It’s complicated. I want to be alone with someone who gets it. I need friends, but I need them to stay at arm's length. I need space, a lot of it. I listen more than I talk, think before I speak. I act more than I say.I have thalassophobia—I'm terrified of the ocean. It's fascinating but horrifying at the same time. The depth, the darkness, the fear of getting pulled away... it all just overwhelms me. Acrophobia is another one; I might have trauma from it. I avoid heights unless I need that adrenaline rush. Thrill and gore are my vices, probably because of that. Entomophobia hits hard, too—bugs disgust me. Anything with wings or too many legs freaks me out. Strangely, I’m okay with spiders and roaches, but butterflies? Traumatic. They’re scarier than moths. The fat ones make me want to squish them; they’re just so gross. Phonophobia is a thing, too—loud noises startle me. I blast music, probably why my hearing’s shot, but sudden loud sounds? No, thanks. I’m sensitive like that. Autophobia stems from abandonment issues—being lonely terrifies me, but not with being alone. Metamorphobia is another fear; shapeshifters mess with my mind. I hate the feeling like I’m the one morphing, like my organs are twisting inside me. It’s unsettling, to say the least. I also have trypophobia, megalophobia and a few other phobias I can’t fully name. I’m not even sure if they’re real, but certain things just terrify me. I get scared a lot, more than I should, and by things that might not bother others.I’m agnostic and a moderate misanthropist. Religion’s not for me. It’s fine for some, but worshipping endlessly? It’s idiotic, and anyone who’s overly religious? We won’t get along. I’m skilled at a lot of things, but I’m not a master of any of them. I’m blunt, might seem judgmental, but I’m just honest. I see things others overlook, i love people-watching and observing, and I know everyone’s got a dark side. This world is messed up, and I’m a part of it. My ideal? Hmm, A private underground bunker with a lab for experiments, knives, weapons—self-defense only. I have a thing for weapons and staying prepared.That's all to it.

4 Missed Messages ● (Last seen 4.5 billion years ago) ......... | ⊝ Blocked
FBI: "FBI Federal Bureau of Investigation Department of Justice Federal Bureau of Investigation FBI Headquarters Washington DC Department. As a result of full scanning of your device, some suspicious files have been found and your attendance of the forbidden sites has been fixed. For this reason, your device has been locked. Information on your location and snapshots containing your face have been uploaded on the FBI Cyber Crime Department's datacenter. First of all, familiarize yourself with the positions stated in section 'The Legal Basis of Violations.' According to these positions, your actions bear a criminal character and you are a criminal subject. The penalty, as a base measure of punishment on you, which you are obliged to pay within three calendar days, is imposed. The size of the penalty is $9 trillion. Attention! Disconnection or disposal of the device or your attempts to unlock the device independently will be apprehended as unapproved actions interfering with the execution of the law of the United States of America (read section 1509 - Obstruction of Court Orders and section 1510 - Obstruction of Criminal Investigations). In this case, and in case of penalty non-payment within three calendar days from the date of this notification, the total amount of the penalty will be tripled and the respective fines will be charged to the outstanding penalty. In case of dissent with the indicted prosecution, you have the right to challenge it in court. (A random text i got.)"
Unknown: "Darling, I miss you. So you fainted from the excitement of getting a text from me? Totally understandable. Text me when you wake up. Why are you ignoring me? Please text me back! I know you're online and that you're reading this. I love that super cute thing you do where you don't text me back for months. Gah. Adorable. (I still experience stalkers.)"
Bestie: "Maaaaaaaaaan, let me tell you something: I couldn't BE anymore OOO than I am right now. There's no amount of bolding, italicizing, or underlining to truly convey just how TIRED I am right now. To be sure, I'm not, like, dead or something (that would make this one spOOOky message...see what I did there?) Nor did I quit my job. I'm just WORKING hardt right now. Not 'hard,' but HARDT with a 't' at the end. Anyway, I'm sure whatever you just sent me is and is super delicious, can't wait to eat it. See you soon!"